all these year i had never give myself any birthday present before....but this year i bought myself something very precious and expensive..
this thing isnt something tangible, it even make me sad...but i hope it will be a good thing for me...
My birthday present for 22nd years old bobo is a lesson, and it cost rm350, a very valuable porter wallet, precious pictures = priceless.
honestly the money lost i feel alright because i doesnt have any special feeling towards them...although it really important to my life...the most sadness part is the wallet and pictures...losing these 2 items really make me crazy...both things are very precious to me....especially those pics.....i do feel my soul and heart getting away from me when i realize it wouldnt back to me anymore...i do curse the fucker who took my wallet....ya i curse you!!i dont fucking care its not good, i just hate you!!!
every second the world and things are changing, photos are something really priceless..its some evidence to remind you something had happened, who you met, what you done...and due to changes no one can go back to that moment to took those photos again...i felt my heart is bleeding...
its very miracle that in this incident i didnt get mad like last time..i getting calmer than last time..i felt very bad and want to cry but i cant cry...it doesnt help the situation anyway..i just kept quiet and keep myself in my room for the next whole day...i doesnt feel wanna talk or see human nature..i felt hate and angry to the careless....i simply feel i am so useless, cant even take care of this little thing...
hmm...at here i would like to apologize to MW and cherrie for yesterday night..i was suddenly cant control myself and shouting at them...i am sorry...i thought i was ready to face people but at last i am not....i dont mean to affect anyone's feeling, next time i will kept myself until ready to meet people...
since last year until now, there are some huge changes in my life...all big and small different things happen around me...some drama, some sad, some happy, some depress and some complicated and etc...all this caused some affect to me....unchangeable affected....
sometimes i do hope i can keep myself away from everyone....
happy birthday in advance to myself...
wish u learnt your lesson from whatever had happened...
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